Simply Me

Everyone has blue days. These are miserable days when you feel lousy, grumpy, lonely, and utterly exhausted. Days when you feel small and insignificant, when everything seems just out of reach... On blue days you feel like you're floating in an ocean of sadness. You're about to burst into tears at any moment and you don't even know why... You're not sure how much longer you can hang on, and you feel like shouting, "Will someone please shoot me!" (with you arms open wide)... ...

We are surrounded with nothing but sad, bad, depressed news everyday. The entire world is under the evil sovereignty, only God brings us hope, happiness, and the strength to move forward.
I pass by airport everyday. This morning on Hwy 401, as I approaching airport, I start to develop goosebumps (雞皮疙瘩) all over me. I had this aweful feeling since yesterday. A 15-month-old toddler fell out of her mother arm and landed on the arrival floor (approx. 4 storey high). He died. I was shocked learning about the news. At the same time, my crazy mind trying to picture the horrible scene. **sob**
I cannot see any bad things happen to any young child. They are the most innocent creature, they are God gift... God, please keeps our children safe and sound!

P/S: I'm sorry for those of you who hates sad news...

My radio alarm clock went off at 5.45am, my foggy brain kept negotiating me back to sleep, it’s warm and cozy under the duvet, so I decided to snuggle a little longer. Ohhhh, it’s Monday, if not because I have to get up to work, I will be extremely reluctant to get up. Whether I like it or not, I still need to get up. Monday seems the tougher day of the week. I drag my unwilling body and mind toward the closet, pick up a black skirt and white shirt. I decided to wear skirt today to match the new flat shoes I got on weekend.

After put together the outfit **weird** something wrong with the tops, so I change another white shirt, still doesn’t look so right. I gave up. May be today just isn’t a skirt day. As soon as I removed them, I spotted a cardigan. The cardigan and the skirt are perfect match. Look at the clock **shoot** 6.45am, I still in my room. Darn, I gonna be late to work!

In the office, I have 3 missed calls and 2 voicemail. I don’t usually change my voicemail when I was only away for a couple of days. After checking voicemail, I know I dressed inappropriate for today’s event. I need to meet the biologist and whole bunch of contractors on site for fish rescue.

At 10.30am, I’m out to Sawmill Creek. Park my car on the street, put on the safety boot.

Hauling myself down the path in this heavy safety boot.**retard** I feel like a dumb engineer for making two mistakes. Mistake #1: wardrobe malfunction - wearing skirt and black panty hose with safety boot. Mistake #2: didn't wear hard hat in constriction site.

Speaking of dumb, this is the second time in less than a week I called myself dumb. Last Wednesday, I called a company to clarified a mistake that our secretary made. After placing the call, I told Joe I felt like the brainless secretary who did the real dumb mistake. I had a good laugh afterward **LMAO** Dumb and dumber.

Why must I care so much about this site meeting? Because this project is my 'baby', my very first design masterpiece. I did this Sawmill Creek Restoration design in 2007, my first project after I joined the Capital Work Programming.




Downstream of the site, photo taken in winter time.

Looking upstream from the site, photo taken this morning. The contractor is working on the left bank, you can see the jersey barrier and coffer dams. And here the biologist doing the fish rescue.

She used this ring rod to electric shock the fish. They got 3 fishes. Two come thru very quickly and being release back to the creek



This guy didn't get thru as quickly as the other two, he must had hit hard by the ring. The biologist trying to revives the fish a little bit in this bucket, then release it back to the creek. Hopefully he survives. She told me, they will survive though. The bigger the fish, the longer they need to recover from the shock.


Dumb engineer heading back to the office. **Ciao, baby**

I promised Ryan to take him to zoo this weekend.

When I put him to sleep last night, he kept reminds me, "mommy, when sun comes out, mommy and bao-bao going to zoo."

Before we head to the zoo, we stop by McDonald to fill up our belly (totally against my healthy eating rule #1: stay away from fast food).

Today weather forecast is cloudy with sunny breaks, high 11. When we arrive at the zoo, people dress in winter gears: hat, mitts, scarves, boots, puffy jackets, look at ourself, we only wear sweaters and vest. I was fooled by the sunny and warm feel when I stepped outside this morning. It is indeed very chilly. Not very long, my body generate enough heat to warm myself up after pushing this 33 lbs kiddo up sloppy path. It is exhausting, however it helps burn the calories I swallowed at McDonald.

Our main purpose of this trip is to see arctic animals: polar bear, snowy owl, arctic wolf and reindeer. Last time when we were here, it was summer, we don't get to see the arctic animals due to the construction.

Teepees

The reindeers - they help pull Santa sleidge. "Where is Rudolpd the red nose reindeer, mommy?" asked Ryan.